Penis envy
I think how you are feeling is natural but it's learned behavior that you can work to unlearn. Society teaches us that a certain size penis is good and others are bad. In reality, all sizes are good and we have to be okay with where we measure up. Just as you reject societal norms in being a nudist, you can also reject the shame that society places on those with smaller penises. This process isn't easy but it is definitely necessary. I hope you find peace with what you have.
I've been ridiculed since Jr. High School. You can imagine what that does to one's self-respect, combine that with a father who always said that "you could do better". I realised a few months ago that I had added all my life; it doesn't make things easier to swallow, just explains it, that's all.Yes, I am smaller than normal. but around age 50, I stopped worrying about what I couldn't change. I take testosterone shots weekly, Cialis daily though I am single and little hope of getting 'lucky', but if you can't change what you can't change, you just deal with it. The way I deal with it is to try to make up for my 'shortcomings' with my tongue, and learn from the women that I do get together with. It's the best I can do.
A large penis is rather rare, and bigger doesn't always mean better! I've known only one or two people with a large penis, one did say he found it a little embarrassing since many people in the changing room at the gym would turn and stare.... something us average guys don't get!
I've learned to live with what I have, never had any negative responses at clubs or swims, naturists accept you for who you are.
For most of my life I thought mine is small, joining the Smaller than Average group here on TN. But then I looked around at various big nudist beaches and realised that most men are around my size. So Here I am. I saw smaller, even turtles and I've seen some bigger, even spectacular. But they are rare. I did some research and discovered Growers and Show-ers. My research revealed that most men are about the same size when erect. Growers are small when limp but may grow significantly when aroused. (Mine doubles in size). Show-ers stay much the same size - they just stand to attention.
Anyhow I'm happy with what I have. Life is too short to worry about the what if... And I don't bother with hormones or pills. There can be a disadvantage with oversized penises. They can attract unwanted attention. They can also cause choking in oral sex. It's the man that counts, the whole man, not just his penis.
I think a lot of my problem goes back to my wife because of things she has said about previous lovers that she felt she needed to tell me about and the fact that she has said that i am the smallest man she has ever been with. It sure doesn't do much for the confidence and nowthat I am having some erectile problems it is even harder on the confidence.
I agree with you newksnudie, I got remarried at the age of 49 & my wife made fun of the size of my penis, even bragging that her adult son was so much bigger than me & so was one of her ex-husbands. After months of this ridicule I started having erectile issues and I know most of it was psychological because of her constant comments, although she sure enjoyed me fucking her!Sure glad I'm not married to her anymore, what a relief! Nothing, including my cock was good enough for her!